aiyoooo you like an emo nemo lehhhhhh i see you type so long i think i might as well type out faster. so we can chop chop see the problem clearly and solve it! aigoo i headpain again liao aigoo so late but im addicted to diablo muahahahhaa
firstly, so we can solve the problem and not leave anything out. let me summarize what you have done/ thought in point form.
1. you have deleted your whatsapp for GOD KNOWS HOW MANY TIMES because blah blah blah
2. your primary school clique firstly, nvr meet cause you dont arrange. secondly, cannot be quiet. therefore i conclude, weird or not as close.
3.you scared to let go which means not messaging at all because you are worried he finds a new bff, life goes on, etc etc
4. you wanna escape everything. from twitter to idk what
5. you think that if you are prettier you will find someone who likes you so you can be tgt with him and forget buffet -.-
6. when he dont text you cannot. when he text you fall back into quicksand. hai.
ok, first things first, this situation that you are in i have also been through so i can say BEEN THERE, DONE THAT. therefore, my advice should be accurate, but as fate likes to play tricks on us, the outcome might not be the same. so see open abit more k!! ^^
please refer to point 3 which i have bolded and made bigger. do you realize that that is the problem?? the root of the whole problem?? ok maybe not the whole point 3 but the first 5 words. which i have kindly highlighted in red. everything else, the deleting whatsapp part, the clique gatherings, the wanting to escape from reality and the rest, all just stem from that. that you are scared to let go.
i believe that if you just solve the letting go part, the rest of the problems will just naturally find their solutions.
so let us talk about the letting go part. btw, do i sound like a professional counsellor?? because if i do i think I SHOULD START CHARGING YOU
letting go. the thought of letting go is hard. but can you imagine this? imagine committing suicide, not that im encouraging you to, HAHAHHAA, i just asked you to imagine. please dont commit suicide your mom will kill me omg. oh yes, but as i was saying, committing suicide, it might be hard to bring yourself to go to the top floor, to climb over the building, the look down, and to take the jump. but once you take that jump, gravity takes over, and things just go.
letting go is actually the same. the thought about letting go is what makes it so hard. you think about the what ifs. you think about the life you could have had, the friends you shared, who will they belong to? you think about the fun times and then you wonder what life would be if you never saw him again? you think about the many many possibilites that you could have had. thats why you want to let go, but you can never. because you still bear hope that all the possibilities will come true.
i cannot tell you firmly that it will all never happen, because nothing is impossible. especially with people. but i can tell you that some people spend all their lives waiting, for nothing. at the end of it, after you spend your youth and all your time when you could be happy and young waiting, you’re left with nothing.
so when you make that first step to letting go. like jumping off the building. everything just goes. best if theres no turning back.
then you might tell me, that you cannot let go like that. because he is your friend also. because you have common friends. because you will miss him alot.
then i seriously cannot help you. you have to make the decision yourself. the meanest way but the easiest way out, is to focus on the bad times. the bad things. because i think the human brain will automatically delete all the unhappy stuff and just keep the happy stuff, thats why we keep making the same mistakes over and over. think about whether he makes you happy more than he makes you sad? think about whether it is all worth it. if the heart breaking feeling that you are feeling, you can bear to continue feeling. if you want your heart to hang on a string, and you continuously check your phone just for his whatsapp. when you see it, you’re happy and sad at the same time. when you dont see it, you are a hundred and one percent sad.
i believe that friends, like lovers, will always find their way back. maybe you were meant to be friends. friends made in heaven. but just not at this time? maybe month later. or a year later. maybe 10 years later after you both have children? or maybe in the very near future, when you finally get over him.
think about it. is it time for a buffet time out??
im not gonna lie. its gonna be hard. probably everything you see will remind you of him, your friends will talk, your picures will remind. even the places you went tgt. its gonna be so hard you’ll feel like taking the easiest way out of jumping back to him . but you’re gonna regret it so fast why you went back. and you’ll regret leaving him. you’re gonna be on an emotional yoyo for a long long timeeeeeeeeee
so think to yourself. is this the kind of friendship you want to have? is this the kind of feeling you want to feel? is this the way you want to live?
if no, maybe it’s time for a buffet time-out.
and let me tell you this, this is not gonna be the first time you get your heart broken, and each time its gonna be harder and more painful than the previous round. because each round a heart is broken, it takes a long time to heal. and we’re gonna be extra careful with it. so the next time we give it away, we’re more cautious, and when it’s broken, we get more hurt. you alaso??
but what to do its part and parcel of life.
and even if now, i dump you a prince charming at your doorstep, or ok, i dump you twy. you wont forget buffet. until you let go of him from the bottom of your heart. its not gonna be that easy to fall for someone else
BUCK UP PLEASE YOU ARE YIP HUIXIAN AND MY FRIEND HELLO!!!! WHY THE TWO OF US SO STRONG WILL MAKE FRIENDS WITH A PIECE OF TOFU LIKE YOU LEHHHHHHHHH
He didnt wanna sit opposite me when we were at tom’s palette ytd night.
Why is that so?? Why?
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I’m losing myself.
Losing the person I used to be.
I don’t want to go to school.
I don’t want to go anywhere.
Can I just lie down on my bed and sleep forever?
